A Messy Discovery Turned Into A New Journey

One day you think you know where you come from and who you are. Then, bam! Your true identity pulls the rug out from under you. 

I made it nearly 30 years thinking I was my parent's biological daughter. We had the typical family photos, memories, all of it. Except it was all a lie. The best-kept secret. 

Can you imagine finding out you were adopted like that? Just out of the blue, days after your mom passes? I found an unmarked envelope while cleaning out her book trunk. Inside was something that shook me to my core. My adoption papers! Not only was I adopted, but my whole family kept it secret from me for 29 years! Who knew? Did my mom tell them not to tell me? Why?

I felt so betrayed. Blindsided. Lost. Like I didn't even know myself anymore. Who were my "real" parents? Why did they put me up for adoption? I had so many questions and no one to answer. My siblings and I weren't on the best of terms so, I didn't know who to trust or who to turn to. 

I was a hot mess trying to grapple with it all. And you know how life is - it doesn't stop just because you're having an identity crisis. I was already struggling with health problems, a rocky marriage, and a four-year-old daughter. The adoption discovery didn't exactly help.

But I'll tell you more about surviving that rollercoaster...

I didn't handle finding out I was adopted very well. I wanted to know about my parents but resented my adoptive mom for not telling me. How could she not share this information with me after all these years? 

This blog is my slice of the internet pie where I feel safe and free to say what's really on my heart with the hopes of inspiring someone's life. I want this blog to reach other women who are feeling lost, without identity and purpose, and give them hope that they will find their roots in themselves, family and strengthen their faith, and find a community of women who want to find purpose and meaning in who they are again. I'm not a great blogger and have my blogging skills all together but as time goes I will get better. Right now, this blog will share my ups and downs, and things I use in my life that make me happy and make life a bit simple. From faith-based content to challenges faced in motherhood, I'll share books, household items, tips, and all sorts of things.